In the past few months more than a few friends have mine have made comments such as "C, your life is like a soap opera/movie" or "you have far too much drama in your life". Only after the comment was made again this morning, did I actually pause to think about it. Yes, there IS far too much drama in my life right now, but honestly I don’t know how to fix it. Up until now there has always been some sort of "quick fix", but they’ve appeared to have run out. Between appointments with 3 different lawyers (2 of which were complete con-artists), a new "threat" from my lawyer to press legal charges against me (for not paying his con artist fees), the "legally sound" advice to get married this weekend, the company I work for being in utter shambles, grappling with why really good people get sick, my current semi-illegal status with the IND, my possible upcoming deportation and the saga of M’s dysfunctional work situation, the drama level is definitely on red alert.
So to deal with it, I’m doing something I haven’t tried before; running away from it all. Last weekend on a spur of the moment decision I booked a 19 day holiday back home.
Do I have the money to do so? Nope. Do I have the vacation days needed? Nope. But do I need to get the hell outta here? Abso-freaking-lutely!
Ever since Saturday, and my ticket purchase I’ve felt the stress slowing flowing out of my veins. I’m so happy to go home, to get away from it all, and to just relaaaxxxxx...Of course, I feel slightly guilty for leaving my man behind, but he understands (as always).
As many of you know I have a slight issue with time. Or should I say with "being on time". A few years ago, when I was living at home, and rushing about late for yet another appointment, my father looked me square in the eyes and said "C, I think I know why you are always late. You like the drama".
Do I truly like the drama? Do I feed off of it? Do I need it to make me feel alive??
I’ll admit, maybe in some instances, I do.
But right now, I know forsure, it’s a little too much for my liking.
Hmmmm, sounds to me like maybe you need a visit to Tuscany for a taste of TRUE drama....ahumm...I mean medicine. You are not dramatic, you are PASSIONATE! Big difference girlie.
Enjoy your holiday and keep up the blog, I love hearing about you guys. Also, give your parents my best regards. That night at the Tapas place in the Jordaan was fun.
Also, don't change...you're great the way you are. Drama (if that is what it is) makes life colorful as long as you recognize it for what it is......A PLAY!
Love,
Tone
